Journal Entry: Joy, Sadness, and Everything In Between

An unsure teen trying to find connection

I am content. I think I’m happy. I still don’t have anyone to talk to. I guess I’m just going to continue writing to you, then.

Today, I am an awfully unsure person. I am confident—I’m just never sure about anything. Honestly, I wish I could make a friend that I can talk to every day, and not be ignored by them. It just makes me so sad when I’m ignored. I thought we could be friends, but I guess if you’re not going to put in the effort, why should I even try?

There are all these possible options for friends, but I’m never sure who I should try to connect with. My perfect friend should be happy, spontaneous, smart, clever, silly, and just… supportive. They should be there to have my back when I have problems or troubles.

Journal Entry: Lost in a Maze, Chasing Beauty

On wealth, growing up, and finding my own path

Today I went to my wealthy uncle’s country home. It’s huge—big enough and decked out enough to make my jaw drop. I guess you could say I’m envious, but in a way it motivates me. It makes me think about what I would have to do to get a house like that.

I asked my aunt what direction I should go in for college. I’m not sure whether she understood me, but she said I should marry a wealthy man. I laughed.

Journal Entry: Hope, Doom, and High School

Reflections from a tired girl trying to make sense of everything

I constantly feel like I’m doing so much work and barely getting any results.

Journal Entry: Staying Here a Little Longer